- What Happened?
I've asked myself countless times as to what happened to our friendship. I can still vividly remember how we became friends in Sec Sch and gradually became best friends. We were often seen in threes and we wrote postcards to one another even though we see each other daily in sch everyday.
However, this friendship fell apart when 2 of us couldn't tolerate her attitude. But things went well till after graduation. I totally lost contact with her due to the "can't be bothered" attitude and also life became so busy with new sch and peeps. The last time I saw them was at a bbq gathering. I can feel that she don't feel good about my presence. (C'mon what's wrong?! tell me! It's stupid to listen to rumors and worst of all, to believe in themand destroy a friendship!)
I can feel it. Some kind of hatred in her.
So well, 2 years after graduation, I met with some other Sec Sch friends and they told me some stuff which I didn't know and I still do not believe.
The Story
There was this guy ( ok, let's name him A). A and her were quite good friends. ( Dont really know how they started off as friends cos he's a senior). She and me were still best friends then and she often told me how much A admires me so on and so forth. But, i can feel that she likes him from the start and i didnt really care. In the end, I got together with A.
The Stuffs that i heard...
" ... did you know that she and A have something going on behind your back? omg, you didnt know?! that time.... bla bla bla..."
It's pretty hard to believe but thinking back, they really have a close relationship as friends.
The biggest Prob
I think the biggest prob is another guy. I seriously think that friends are so much more precious than guys.
Oksy, she like this very good buddy of mine. And well, like many other crushes, the guy likes her too. So, i became the match-maker hoping that she will finally find her love. (childish thinking back in Sec sch days. ha!) I took the effort to organise chalet and let them have some private time together. but, wth the guy changed his mind and told me that she is not the one and I have to help him convey this msg to her. ( How am i going to say it? You broke her heart and left this mess to me!) the worst thing is that he confessed to me. ( so eventually, everyone thinks that i "snatched" him away!)
You can call me whatever names you want to cos i got together with that buddy of mine during summer vacations cos i dont want to miss out someone who can communicate so well and understand me so well. I have to keep this from her cos she is having such a hard time trying to get over him. and i dont know how to handle such situations. ( this is such a wrong move!)
the above really threw the whole friendship into a deep dark hole where none of us know how to save it.
till now, i guess she still thinks i'm at fault but i can swear to god I have never done anything that will harm this friendship of ours.
3 years have past. I see many photos of gatherings they had together and I wasnt invited. that hurts..
I hope she could understand that what happened in the past was really a misunderstanding she had for me.
Many times i wanted to call her up and talk to her but i am lack of the courage to do so.
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